For the past two weeks I have been rummaging around to try and come up with 101 goals for me to accomplish (or try) in 1001 days. That's 2.75 years!!! Whoa! I started this task on November 1, 2009 and with the whole internet/ technology so focused on in our lives I started "another" blog to write down when I do a goal and write the experience on there. So if you wanna check this out it is to the right in the column or you can click here :)
And if you would like to take a look at what got me pumped up to do this clickhere,(she is the one who inspired me to do it, thanks connie) and if you would like to try and do it yourself and need all the rules and regulations of the almost 3 year adventure extraordinaire, clickhere
I was being bored today as i always am. Haha, its a saturday don't judge me! And I was looking at youtube videos and came across Micheal Buble's new song. "I haven't met you yet" and as you can probably guess from the title it is talking about how this person will make you feel amazing and complete and wonderful. When i do find you I hope that we can dance and frolic like they do in this music video, i hope you laugh at my jokes. I hope that even if you think i'm bad driver you will let me drive (even if you're scared) I hope that you hold me close and tell me you love me as much as possible, cause count on it - i'll do it to you. I hope that we can sing together through out our lives. I hope that you enjoy listening to the rain and just taking walks with a scarf around your neck, fingers intertwined with mine. ( i know sappy, but a girl can dream right? ) But dear guy i haven't met yet-- I haven't found you, but i will. Hope you're doing great, and having a fantastic day. ---
- Love Brianna :)
This is my song. Right now. In my life. In every single girls life. And i think its awesome. Take a listen.
I'm not surprised, Not everything lasts, I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track. Talk myself in, I talk myself out, I get all worked up, Then I let myself down,
I tried so very hard not to loose it; I came up with a million excuses, I thought I thought of every possibility,
And I know some day that it’ll all turn out, You'll make me work so we can work to work it out, And I promise you kid that I give so much more than I get~ mmm....... I just haven't met you yet.
Mmmmm ....
I might have to wait, I’ll never give up, I guess it's half timin', and the other half's luck, Wherever you are, Whenever it's right, You'll come outta nowhere and into my life.
And I know that we can be so amazin', And baby your love is gonna change me, And now I can see every possibility, mmmmmm....
Somehow I know that it’ll all turn out, You'll make me work so we can work to work it out, And promise you kid, I'll give so much more than I get, mmmm.... I just haven't met you yet.
They say all’s fair in love and war But I won’t need to fight it, we'll get it right an', we'll be united
Instrumental
and I know that we can be so amazin', And bein' in your life is gonna change me, And now I can see every single possibility, mmmmmm
And someday I know it'll all turn out, And I'll work to work it out, Promise you kid I’ll give more than I get Than I get, than I get, than I get.
Oh, you know it'll all turn out, and you'll make me work so we can work to work it out, And promise you kid to give so much more than I get, yeah I just haven't met you yet.
I just haven't met you yet, Oh, promise you kid, To give so much more than I get.
I said love love love love love love love..... I just haven't met you yet Love love love ..... So doy day ay ay ay, ay ay yeah I just haven't met you yet!
I think i'm going to start another blog. But i will keep this one, to write about what goes on, big and small events in my life.
this new blog will be
A spiritual/thoughts/ideas blog. That just comes from me. Maybe it will be about a show i saw, or something on the news. Or a thought that struck me through the day. So that's what i'm going to do. Here's the address: if you want to read
So that I could come on here, oh dear blogger, and write away my heart in the form of a well descriptive and highly entertaining story that seems like it was made up but in fact is a story of my clearly not boring life. But to much dismay I don't have much writing power or experience... That wasn't correct. My sentences are not as they should be, sometimes at least. Sometimes I pop out really good sentences in such a way that i'm not sure where the crap they came from. Otherwise my sentences are run-on's or really have no point. Sometimes I want to express my opinion in a few simple words and it turns into an encyclopedia of useless information only understood by me. The one who is simply ranting or writing about an array of things at once. And instead of informing people of my mental state I just confuse them to the point of no return. Hmmm.
Isn't that what blogs are for though? For the ranting or just spill of your thoughts whether they be understood or not?
Hey! Sorry about all the ranting and raving these last couple posts, i have just been trying to figure out life as we know it and surprisingly it has been a larger endeavor than I had ever imagined! But hey, everyone goes through large ups and very large downs. I know this from, well, personal experience. And clearly even though the tough times come around, there is always a silver lining, or star on the horizion, or greener grass on the other side. Whatever one applies to you, it will always come up. Maybe not in the time frame you would like it to, but when it does it hits hard with a force unimaginable until you feel it pounding at your door and you can't wait to open it, and when you finally get up the courage there is a weight released off your shoulders and you can breathe and look around and remember the beautiful things in life once more. Work hard in school again, continue making new acquaintances, and helping grow spiritually, physically and emotionally.
There is this quote that I found a little while back while working at work one day. Harriet Beecher Stowe said it and i'm pretty sure it is my favorite quote now. Along with 2 nephi 2 : 13 being my new favorite scripture.
" When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you till it seems as though you could not hang on a minute longer, never give up then for that is just the time and place that the tide with turn. "
Have you ever wanted to take a step back in time and do something over or just have the oppotunity of trying again? Seeing how different life may be if you chose the other path.
Have you ever stared at a choice you were about to make and trying to figure out the outcome of your actions?
Does it really make a large difference to what happens in life on whether you choose an apple or banana that morning for breakfast, or just skip out on breakfast all together?
Once you make those decisions are they set in stone, never to be revisited? Do you just have to be happy or content with where you small and seemingly unimportant choices have led you?
That sounds like leaving life up to chance.
I thought that's not what you're supposed to do
But how do you grab hold of the rules of the game when you didn't even know they were there to change things around? Are we all just having to wait and make rash and quick decisions about the most important gift given to us. I hope not, but sometimes it feels that way.
Sometimes
there isn't enough time to think it through
think of about the positives
Negatives
and
possibilities
Sometimes life feels like a maze and I think mine is at a dead end at the moment and i'm not sure whether I should jump the wall or turn back around and find another route. But i don't know how to do that .
I don't know how to be impulsive and alone
I feed on human companionship. Whoa, that just sounds wierd. I thrive (that's a better word) on friends, boyfriends, not sure what friends, acquaintances, and just a nice person who smiles down the street. They make me happy, and strong and leave me with a sense of meaning and worth in this world.
But people get busy, or I just get paranoid and feel like if i haven't seen a certain person in a day or two then i'll go crazy but they are busy and have a life other than me in it. Bleh. They have friends and school and sports and just more of a life than me, at least now. And sometimes I feel that I drive them away...because they never want me around, am i that annoying? Shoot...maybe I am.
Anyway, some of these instances wanting to go back in time and start over. Not sending that stupid text or not saying that stupid thing or just being plain stupid or overbearing. Happen to me often including right now and this past week in general.
I need something to do in my life. I need ambition again and the drive to do something extrodinary. At least to me. So if anyone has any ideas for my brighter than now life, they would be greatly appreciated.
